foundation

Bring me back down, to the moments caught before the buzzing. It is this space between the current frame of where we are now to when felt we were made of stone, metal, diamonds even-shimmering and indestructible. But the wind has gripped our heels, has ensnared us in its motion and we have halted: kept […]

Rounds

Where do you even begin anymore? A hope you’ve come to avoid. You hold between yours, a pendulum between pride and the void. Between you, there is static, not the embers that began as a glow but a palpable fizzing. It is this that once started as a small scrabbling for a foothold, but now […]

a snapshot,

Your words crawl across my neck, my wrists, my toes and they culminate into bonds that hold me still and silent. They are landmines of each failure: a list of reasons where all I hear is how I am not enough – enough to reach your expectations. So, I spend my time focusing on my breathing, […]

6.6.13

Courage, fit neatly between lung A and lung B, earned with pink and black lines. This brand: ribbons that encircle hips, thighs, ankles, toes. An ink that spares no skin. These fresh marks held with fury, hands pressing to skin to keep, like a wound – a rush that spills and encircles and envelops. This. […]

racing –

where will the space leave you? along the lines of your thoughts, they’re big enough to keep you from sleep they crawl and weasel their way into the creases between your love and you little notes, reminders stuck between sheets and to hold onto this – is just you, such a small body this space, this […]

fear

for the fear inside you is nothing a rising smoke that permeates and fits beneath the skin – it presses against each corner, each rib and rests and clings so take the pieces that you are, a puzzle formed and bit by bit dismantle until the poison begins to hiss through the cracks and evaporate […]

Spiralling,

Please, please don’t ever decide you’re tired of all my shit. This fear, it has me paralyzed. It holds my body hostage: a cold pervading through my bones, sickness in the bottom of my stomach, the ache behind my eyes. Maybe one day I won’t burst into tears at forgetting my water bottle or dropping […]

Repeats –

Have you ever sat so still and silent that the world seems to swim around you, the air a thickness to wade through – Content to just wait, to tread water until this crashing /thunderous shaking that builds and presses against such thin-nes of skin – until it is too much and small seeping lines […]

excerpt

Every time I wake, I wake with the fear that you’re leaving. My hands always find their way to your skin- your chest, your cheek, just a touch to remind my heart that you have not yet gone. Your breath is too much, no air to verify my fears are unwarranted. This panic settles like […]